I SUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!

I have really low self-esteem! I SUCK! I hate me!

I hate that I have really low self-esteem! I hate that I hate me!

I hate that: 1) no one will ever hire me to sing in a paying chorus because I sight sing at a high-school level; 2) no one will ever hire me for musical theater because I can't dance; 3) no one will ever audition me for opera because I don't have a resume.

I hate that I can't find my TWO pitch forks, which are both A's, by the way. (I hate that I don't have perfect pitch). I have (HAD) two because I misplace things so easily. Such as my foot-long ruler that I use everyday to measure boxes and ribbon and string (origami stuff), I literally spend about 10 minutes per day looking for my ruler (in a 1-bedroom apartment). Today I found it in my toiletry bag in the bathroom. Yesterday under a pile of papers. Not to mention scissors and needles--it's a miracle that I haven't permanently lost any needles to date.

I hate that it's almost 2AM and I'm still up while I have to get up in the morning to go look at apartments! And go to a barbecue!