Still got that crazy order, been making me crazy, I hate this, hate this, hate this arrr.
You know what's funny, after the movers came and packed all my worldly possessions into a truck and drove off, the first thing I felt was if I lost all those things I would be perfectly fine. I have what I need in my 1.5 suitcases, which include my favorite jeans, t-shirts, dresses, and 5 pairs of shoes, and about 5 books to keep me company. The only other thing I really cared about is my car, but that's gone it's OK. But at that moment I just felt like I don't really NEED anything. I bought three books at Barnes and Noble before leaving, just 'cause, they were buy 2 get 3rd free. And it's pretty weird how much I feel like I'll be OK as long as I have a few books. I just remember one of them is the Bell Jar, that my cousin said she liked, and I trust her judgment completely, and I don't even remember what the two others were. So, my point... I dunno it's just a weird feeling. All that stuff. I don't need it. I really don't need any of it.
And I sat in the empty apartment, like seconds before exiting forever, and one window had the blinds up, and outside was like... the most beautiful depressing thing ever, just slate blue sky, a bit of a building, and the enormous old-timey streetlight. It was so beautiful.
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